I'm realizing I have a bad case of destination happiness.
What we have is never enough, we will always want more and we will always want it to be better. It’s a never ending treadmill but also we are refusing to sit in the present tense which is where we want to be. - Millala Scelles
It's dangerous ground I'm trekking on.
If I was somewhere else I'd be happier. If I was doing X I'd be happier. If X person gave me more attention I'd be happier.
Instead of being present, I'm daydreaming of a future. I've been listening to a lot of podcasts to help ground myself (and distract myself from negative thoughts) and one was discussing the importance of the present in shaping both our past and future. The morbid understanding of the fragility of life, the fact that we can die at any moment, should push us to value our present existence more, yet I still find myself stuck in these daydreams. But these daydreams cause me to resent my present. Why can't things be different? My need to control and create order bites me in the butt because we cannot control others. Moreover, I've built a sense of dissatisfaction for my present that makes the present feel toxic to exist in. However, I can only control my present reality, so maybe I need to do the work and come to terms with it. Somehow typing that out gave me the push I think I needed. Or maybe it's just the coffee kicking in.
Soon never comes.
Anyways, onto the sewing.
In a mental spiral and a need to get out of the house, I went to the thrift store and picked up this red silky blouse for $2. OK, it's made of cheap polyester, but silky sounds so much more suave.
I was attracted to both the material and color of this shirt. I originally intended to make a skirt out of it, but I felt like it may turn out looking cheesy. Thus, I opted for a low back halter top. My inspiration doesn't trace back to one particular piece. I've seen low back tops on Pinterest that have caught my eye in the past, and this top was just a fluid combination of all of the tops I liked.
I'm really proud of myself for taking the time to really make each hem nice. I would actually sell this shirt/wear it out since I personally think it's so well made. I ironed down all the seams, and measured twice and cut once.
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